Catching up on laundry day...

So for the last few weekends, my husband and I have been working on constructing our 8 foot walk in closet and bathroom...  (our house only had one bathroom which we remodeled last year...now we are making a master bath and giving ourselves a much needed closet!)...  so with helping my husband with the remodel my laundry has gotten way behind.  I have tried to do some during the week after I get home from work, but this week has been overly exhausting for some reason.  Could be I'm still trying to recouperate from last Friday when I couldn't keep anything down and was sicker than a dog.  I have also been lacking motivation and have been wanting to finish this book that I have been trying to read over the last 2 months. 

Anyway, my husband took my oldest son shopping for our tub/shower, and toilet with him and left my younger son here with me... he thought it would be "less of a distraction" if I had one child to take care of instead of two... little does he know of my new found blogging habit.  ;)  So,

Can I be cloned??

So, I neglected to state last night in my post that the reason why I was still up was to do laundry for my husband.  He now has an office job and he has a sales meeting on Tuesdays and they were having CEO's coming to the office and was advised they need to wear a button up shirt with their company logo on them.  That meant I had to make sure he had a clean pair of slacks and shirt so he would have clothes to wear.  However, in my zombie-fied state - I neglected to wash my husbands white undershirts....  Oopsie....  So inevitably I got an angry text this morning in regards to his lack of undershirts.  <sigh>  Moments like this I just want to throw my hands up in the air and just say "I give up!",....but I never do.  I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.  I wonder if it is on the edge of being considered a door mat.... My sister in law says that I should just tell him to do his own laundry... and he has even threatened to do so, but it never seems to happen....  Instead I am stuck in this vicious cycle of not being able to keep up with everything during the week (working a full time job, being a mom, laundry, dishes, picking the house up, etc) and on the weekends the boys don't really let me get a lot done....  by the time that I am able to do something about it (after they go to bed) I'm exhausted and just want to rest...  so I sit... and waste time... knowing I have things to do, but I just want to breathe and not have to do anything.....  As a result of my wanting some "air" I end up staying up late, not being as productive as I needed to be, wake up late the following morning....  run around like a chicken with its head cut off.....  and then I get a text or an email from my husband telling me how I failed to do something... I really am sick of this cycle.  I have decided that I need a clone or two in order to get everything done and enjoy my life.... one would do the dishes and laundry and cooking and cleaning, the other would work her full time job, and I would get to stay home and enjoy myself with reading, sewing, scrapbooking, playing with my children, visiting with my family....    Maybe one day I will enjoy my day to day life... but for now I will run this never ending race... I know before too long the kids will be grown and I will regret not spending all the time I could with them.... Sometimes I just need to throw myself a little pitty party and get it all out in order to see the big picture.  Laundry and dishes will always be there - they will never end, but my children are growing up before my eyes and I need to savor each moment with them.  My mother tells me that nearly every time I talk to her.   I am doing the job that God has been so gracious to give me and I need to keep that as my focus....  easier said than done, but I will die trying my hardest to show my children the love, grace, and adoration that God has shown me.

Sleepless Nights

So, have you ever had a night where you are physically tired, but mentally you are not?  I'm having one of those nights... I seem to get to a point where I know I need to go to sleep because if I don't I'll have a heck of a time getting up in the morning, but I just can't seem to make myself go to bed.  I don't know if it's the solitude and the quiet that I crave so much... or something else.  I always complain about not having time to read, but am I reading?  ... NO!  I complain that I don't get to do things (sewing, scrapbook, etc), but am I doing those things right now? .... NO!  Instead, I sit in front of the tv and get on the computer and turn into zombie brain... knowing there were so many things that I wanted to do, but not remembering excatly what I wanted to do first... So, I sit... and I waste time... and then get frustrated that I was just a lazy bum.  Then before I know it a new day has begun and I did not get anything accomplished that I had intended.  It's the thought that counts though, right?  lol   I give up.  I need a way to become more organized.. to remember things that I would enjoy doing.  Maybe one of these nights I'll get it figured out, but until then....  Good night for now!

It's all in the name..

I bet you're wondering how I came up with the blog name "AlwayzFrOg"...aren't you??  Well, I'll tell you...I am a born again Christian and believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins.  By accepting Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior my sins have been washed clean.  That doesn't mean that I am without fault.  In fact - I have been struggling over the last 10 years of my life and realized that I had been trying to "play God" myself.  This last year a light bulb went off - I cannot be God because the job is already taken.  I have to continually remind myself that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me... so AlwayzFrOg stands for "Always Fully Rely On God".  It is my personal reminder that I have a God that is always looking out for me and knows what is best.  My job is to learn to listen to Him instead of my inner dialog and know that I can sit back and relax.  :)