Saturday, June 18, 2011
Can I be cloned??
So, I neglected to state last night in my post that the reason why I was still up was to do laundry for my husband. He now has an office job and he has a sales meeting on Tuesdays and they were having CEO's coming to the office and was advised they need to wear a button up shirt with their company logo on them. That meant I had to make sure he had a clean pair of slacks and shirt so he would have clothes to wear. However, in my zombie-fied state - I neglected to wash my husbands white undershirts.... Oopsie.... So inevitably I got an angry text this morning in regards to his lack of undershirts. <sigh> Moments like this I just want to throw my hands up in the air and just say "I give up!",....but I never do. I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I wonder if it is on the edge of being considered a door mat.... My sister in law says that I should just tell him to do his own laundry... and he has even threatened to do so, but it never seems to happen.... Instead I am stuck in this vicious cycle of not being able to keep up with everything during the week (working a full time job, being a mom, laundry, dishes, picking the house up, etc) and on the weekends the boys don't really let me get a lot done.... by the time that I am able to do something about it (after they go to bed) I'm exhausted and just want to rest... so I sit... and waste time... knowing I have things to do, but I just want to breathe and not have to do anything..... As a result of my wanting some "air" I end up staying up late, not being as productive as I needed to be, wake up late the following morning.... run around like a chicken with its head cut off..... and then I get a text or an email from my husband telling me how I failed to do something... I really am sick of this cycle. I have decided that I need a clone or two in order to get everything done and enjoy my life.... one would do the dishes and laundry and cooking and cleaning, the other would work her full time job, and I would get to stay home and enjoy myself with reading, sewing, scrapbooking, playing with my children, visiting with my family.... Maybe one day I will enjoy my day to day life... but for now I will run this never ending race... I know before too long the kids will be grown and I will regret not spending all the time I could with them.... Sometimes I just need to throw myself a little pitty party and get it all out in order to see the big picture. Laundry and dishes will always be there - they will never end, but my children are growing up before my eyes and I need to savor each moment with them. My mother tells me that nearly every time I talk to her. I am doing the job that God has been so gracious to give me and I need to keep that as my focus.... easier said than done, but I will die trying my hardest to show my children the love, grace, and adoration that God has shown me.
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